the cycle of unrealistic expectations

During this episode, Victoria opens up about the impacts of Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) and Shadoe explores lingering regret about her art project; "The Word Fat". 


As always, we start with our check-in.  This week that includes: 

•  mega-sleep 
• puns
• human connection

Then, Victoria shares a cause for applause about the latest episode, a letter from Nurse Alex. (8:03)


To skip the check ins, jump in at 11:46 


Victoria opens up about the cycle of punishment that comes with unrealistic expectations. In particular, trying to make summer happen during the winter. 
As a person living with SAD, it is extremely difficult for Victoria to wake up early, and, she has spent a lot of time punishing herself for that instead of leaning into it. 

For example, she has learned that a nature walk each day is a prescription, but it does not have to be the first thing of the day - as long as it happens at some point each day. 


Shadoe explores lingering regrets about starting an art project with the word 'fat' without having more understanding of fat liberation first. 

As she states in the episode, "it felt good to channel the creative energy into something that could help me with self-esteem" and “I’ve moved past feeling insulted by someone who would call me fat. And 13-Year-Old Me would have never thought that was possible.” 

However, this project uncovered that there is a lot more layers to fat liberation that she was not ready to address properly. This project has been on hiatus for more than 2 years and she is putting a lot of pressure on herself to create the 'perfect piece' of content to wrap it up.  



As always, we complete the episode with our three breaths. 

~o~O~o~ May You Be Well ~o~O~o~~o~O~o~ 

~o~O~o~ May You Be Kind to Yourself ~o~O~o~ 

~o~O~o~ May You Be Safe and at Ease ~o~O~o~ 
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